I'm Not WorThy

i am proud to say that i was once an active member of the best organisation in Univeristi Kebangsaan Malaysia..Urusetia Pembangunan Sumber Manusia(UPSM) but due to certain restraints..i had to pull myself out..i planned bout it for some while though..

UPSM has given me things that i couldn't imagine i could get anywhere else..love..compassion..understanding..and friendship..UPSM trained me to become a trainer and eventhough i 'm not qualified to train anyone..i do have the basic knowledge of the field..

UPSM has shaped me to who i am now..but even with all the knowledge i curently have..i'm not sure how i'm going to hold the burden of becoming the president of Micribiology Cub..this is by far the most straight forward post from me..no witty phrases..no crafty insults..just me speaking my mind bout this current issue..and i just want support from every member of the club..to right the wrongs of our seniors..to shed some light on the narrow mind set of our beloved microbiologists to be...

SiLveR LinIngs ArE eVerywHere..

yesterday wasn't da best day of my life..it was hectic..exhausting..and at times painful..da whole nite was a stress for me..pressure was squashing me like a giant hammer smashing a lemon...

but ALHADULILLAH..all praise be to Him...i endured it with frens..and my committee..id first like to thank my deputy...Khairul for always being there whenever i needed him..Que for the advice and smacks in the face i needed...Faiq for accepting to help at such notice..adib for helping out khairul with the bus arrangements...i would also like to thank all who have helped in making last night's dinner a success...i guess u could call it that...

you might think that i'm a wuss complaining bout this..and i am...technically..but not at heart...huuuuuuuuuu..

after taking care of my duties of the night..i was blessed with the opportunity to have a chat over a cup of coffee with Al-Akh Kadir(the lorry driver)..he's what we call a karkun (or tabligh for those of u aren't familiar with the word)..and goes out in the road of ALLAH azzawajal...he so kindly shared some stories..bout how he heard some speeches on his journeys..

and i shared my feelings for the

 night...and asked for advise..all he said bout it was..to have a calm heart..just positively(husnuzzhan) or give the benefit of the doubt while asking for forgiveness (istghfar)..

reminding ourselves that we are not perfect and look to improve ourselves than others..now i;m sharing it with anyone who has eyes and can read..

after the chat..we went our separate ways..where wished each other peace and blessings with giving each other a big hug..

i went back to room with a calm heart..felt like crying thinking bout how foolish i was.thinking so badly of others..i hope to become stronger from this..and become a better muslim..

Authenticated Israeli Crime in Gaza: killing patients in cold blood

Authenticated Israeli Crime in Gaza: killing patients in cold blood

For the past 6 months Israeli occupation committed illegal and savage massacres against Palestinians. The committed actions (massacres) are flagrant and obvious violations of human rights law, four Geneva conventions and other international human laws and charters. Infants, old men and old women have been killed in cold blood. Yet Israel and its occupation forces say, "we are defending ourselves and own country!" Therefore, we ask a question! Are old men, old women and infants holding guns? Are they firing rockets? Are they…. Are they and are they! Wonders will not end bye the end of these words.

The more astonishing reality is the fact of those people in the following pictures. They are mostly patients with chronic diseases. They are being killed due to siege imposed on Gaza Strip. Israel is firing, shooting, and preventing them from having medicines and banning them from traveling abroad for medications.

Ironically, those patients are in serious health situations and they are spending their times in Intensive Care Unit, ICU. However, Israel is always rejecting their medical requests to leave for medications outside! The ready pretext made by Israel is, "they are source of danger on our state."

Hence, we raise some questions with the help of patients' pictures in Gazas' hospitals. Are those powerless people able to bother Israel by blowing up themselves? Are they able to fire or short? Why they are banned from having medications abroad? Why Israelis reject letting medicines into Gaza Strip?

It's remarkable that health sector has been rapidly and dramatically affected by the siege. According to the latest Humanitarian Situation Report of the Office for the Coordination of Humanitarian Affairs (OCHA) released on October 9th, 2007, fewer than five patients crossed into Israel/West Bank each day for medical treatment compared to an average of 40 patients per day in July. World Health Organization has indicated, though, that an average of 1000 patients used to leave Gaza for treatment each month prior to the mid-June closures. But now, all patients are banned to leave outside for urgent surgeries and medications!

The following pictures exclusively have been taken by Popular Committee Against Siege (PCAS). They are some of siege ramifications on health sector.

More pictures:

http://picasaweb.google.com/freegaza.ps/DyingPatientsInICU

http://picasaweb.google.com/freegaza.ps/NewelyBornBabiesSick

http://picasaweb.google.com/freegaza.ps/GazaHealthCrisisDecember2007

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nEW sEm??neW ME??

a new sem has arrived..it's already been bout 3weeks since i left my comfy bed in penang...3 whole weeks without the hustle and bustle n sounds of angry drivers honking their horns like there's no tomorrow..3 weeks of registering...buying new books..looking for classes..taking down lecture notes that only give us 2.3seconds to jot down while the lecturers blabber on about how fascinating a cell is..or how extremely complex a chromosome is regardless of its origin..excepting my less than acceptably GPA..nothing new..been there..done that..but still..after living for so long..soo flipping long..i still can't open my own eyes..i still can't face the fact that i HAVE to change..i HAVE to be a better me..not for myself...not for my family..but for the DEEN i believe in..U don't have to be perfect to make urself a muslim..u don't have to have 15diplomas  from 4different universities to be able imbrace islam..HECK..Bilal  was a slave when he believed in the one and true creator..ehem2..sorry melalut jap..emm..i just excluded mself from being an exCo from my facultie's student body..on my way of letting go of another position in my theater club..i know that being in a club or society doesn't effect our or more importantly...MY grades..it's after when we don't commit...that's when the problems kick in..

after thinking it over rationally..i drew out a theory bout being active in clubs or societies or student bodies or even in your college's annual dinner prep..usually the normal everyday person would say this.."yo Joe, i don't think i'm going to da meeting tonite..i'd be better off studying or finishing of that overdue paper prof mu'adz asked for last week"

from here..we can see two things already(well three, ignoring the part about me suddenly being a professor and giving student's homework )..the first thing is his attitude..he doesn't care bout his duty to go to the meeting..he disregards the face that he has been given the faith to hold a position..yet he coolly studies n 'spends his time well' 'while letting the others go for the meeting..he doesn't know that his time studying isn't blessed because he's very being irresponsible..and when he tries to answer the final paper..he suddenly turn blank as he cannot remember wat he learnt during the time he was SUPPOSED to be in a meeting..and the second thing is that he has an overdue paper..this is due to the fact that he has not commited himself into wat he had promised to commit..so God Al-Mighty doesn't give him time to finish his assignment as his duty to go to the meeting wasn't fullfiled...So i Can'T n NevEr will put da blame on anything but myself..n i hope that i will change for the better...(^_^')

ReGrEts Are For PusSieS..

ever had the feeling that u should've done the other thing rather the thing that you just did or STILL DOING? WELL get over it..u can't change the past, nor can u predict the future but what u can do is try ur best during the the time u so ungratefully have now..for those of you who are miserable enough to not have the time to watch 'kungfu panda' due to the ridiculous amount of time u spend regretting every step u took and every corner u turned..here's some word of advice from a wise/dead/funny/old kungfu master
"yesterday is history,
tomorrow's a mystery, but today is a gift,
that's why it is called the present" (^_^')

i just came home..went thru a 6hour drive from me beloved UKM to Penang Island..leaving behind not only the crazy monkeys that terrorize the students (no really..those monkeys are bonkers..harassing female students in campus..IN CAMPUS!!us humans don't do that..UKM has guards and everything..yet they are sneaky enough to go inside hostels and steal the students nourishment supplies..these monkey's aren't dumb..i can tell u that..if they were..they wouldn't be in a university..) and my beloved siblings at UPSM(urusetia pembangunan sumber manusia)..dorang ngah wat perkampungan skang...n i only had a chance to attend the 'taklimat' given by our one and only abg napi..abg roy did an excellent job to break da ice among our juniors..
and our dear que made his appearance replacing the absent abg lan..trying his best to make our beloved juniors crack a smile while still maintaing his personalia attitude..freaky..yet entertaining..should've recorded that but hey..regrets are for pussies..
it was really hard..or berat (heavy) for me to leave my beloved batch-21..a few days from now they'll be hiking up some mountain while i'm stuck at home posting my blogs..on the 2nd of Dis their off to Terengganu..Seberang Takir to be exact..i never went to one of UPSM's OPKIMs(operasi khidmat masyarakat) before..so i was really hoping to go this time...many stories were repeated to me as to how fun and exiting OPKIM was..making me smile with glee everytime i hear da word..seberang takir..but after a brief discussion with me dear ol' mum..a decision was made..and that decision landed me in penang...thus stranding me here for another month..but hey..no regrets coz i ain't a pussy..i just hope that thier all doing ok and are having a ball...Allah has His way of teaching us on how to become better Muslims..for He knows what is best for His servants...i know that i'm supposed to be here..looking after my lil' sisters while my parents are away for Hajj..for He is the best planner..He knows what will happen if we were to do any action..regardless of time and space..so have trust in Him and never ever listen to the whispers of the syaitan that will always lead us to hellfire..so this is the best for me..and no regrets there..

tHe ReAL DeaL..

tHis is my first official posting..and this post will initiate my coming to the world of blogging..God willing..i never actually understood the word..blogging..blogger..blog..yeah it passed me by but never have i embraced it like football or sleeping sessions during the occasional downpour..my perception to the world has changed during the last few years..God Al-Mighty has gifted many freinds and not so friendly aquatintses that have shattered the walls that have been constricting my mind..demolished the accumulating ignorance that could have well sent me down a short and narrowminded road..there wasn't really a purpose for me blogging besides improving my typing skills..but after reading posts by other people i felt the sudden urge to express myself and what i belive in..it may sound corny..but i am who i am..and i know i'm not perfect..but i hope my 'not being perfect'ness can open the hearts if not the eyes of you fellow readers..and with this i hope to go againts the world with as we malaysians say..'kaki yang lebar' and 'dada besi'..